Sunday, April 11, 2010

What's next-

I've been experiencing a calling from God and I'm interested on how he will use me. I feel like when your a kid (okay I still feel like this) on Christmas morning so excited that you can't contain it and you just want to peek and see what it is. I really REALLY want to peek at whats to come.
I think only recently my faith has become truly real. Knowing that God wanted to work a miracle in me and he chose me to do this miracle when He didn't have to. Kinda reminds me that I am special enough for anyone. Being single has sucked at times, okay a lot of times, but knowing that God has someone who sees me and chooses me is going to be amazing. So I'll wait, I wont settle or at least I'll try not to settle. I can't wait to discover that love.
This year I wanted to get closer to God and I sure have. Learning more and more about all the many things he has in store for me I'm so excited.

Monday, April 5, 2010


So I tend to forget that I have this thing.

Well on March 19th I took my last dose of Morphine, which I used for my pain control. I was scared of what would happen to me during this detox process and God worked a miracle in me. I had little to no withdrawal symptoms. The worst that happened to me was a headache that turned into a migraine.
For those who don't know most people who go off morphine get shakes, puking and etc. I had none of that. Also as the same time I came off Cymbalta and other meds, kinda exciting.

Now you are wondering if your off pain meds do you feel better? Yes and no. I am in pain but I just have to deal with it. My temper is increased and I know this and am cautious. My speech has gone some as well. Why? Well imagine you have a 4yr old constantly bugging you non stop, your speech would be impaired too. The 4yr old is my pain. I just deal. God will get me through this.

EDIT- To answer your question Sonja, no I wont be going back onto pain meds. I don't plan on going back them for the long run. Just take it day by day.